My greatest blessing

With everything that has been going on I feel that I have slacked off somewhat with sharing my news about joy. Yes, even in my most difficult moments I am looking for joy. Daddy has teased me and said that I'm like Pollyanna but I find myself needing joy everyday.

My note today is based off a book I recently bought entitled, Blessings. It is a compile of essays from great writers about their greatest blessing and I choose to do mine now.

When I first met Kevin I never thought that he would help me accomplish my dreams. I guess that all girls dream of a prince that will carry them on a white horse to a magical palace. If only life were that easy. My prince happens to go to school every, work hard in an engineering research group and still come home with enough energy to make dinner. Even though at that point I'm already crashed on the couch or our bed from my own hard day at work.

I never thought I woud have to fight someone to do the dishes. This prince does not only do the dishes, but the laundry, mop the kitchen floor, clean a very dirty bathroom and anything else he can do to make my life easier. He always puts my needs and even wants first no matter the time of night. He's stayed with me being sick, missed work and school because I was sick, holds me when I cry, cheer with me during my accomplishments, dream big on things I hope to do and never stops believing in me. In fact, if it were not for Kevin, I would not have continued doing photography which I love so much. He believed that I could take pictures even if it was just because I wanted to and paid for my Nikon. :)

Most people when they get married they state some sort of promise that they'll love the other person forever. This is true I know that Kevin will love me forever but I don't think anywhere in our marriage promise it included all the duties that he has managed to take upon himself as my husband.

So with our first Valentines as a married couple, we began to realize that a healthy baby would not be born to us this September. Our major dream had been crushed. I immediately threw myself into a huge depression and would not leave the bed even though I had planned a big family dinner. There at my side was Kevin who let me cry but reminded me that he would always be at my side. He got me out of my self pity and reminded me that our four year old niece was counting on showing us her new red dress, and that the whole idea of the dinner was mine. Thanks to him we did have a great dinner that night.

What I would do without him? I don't know. Again now on the eve of when I am about to go to the hospital for a D&C he reminds me, "We're still young. We can try again and we'll have a heathy baby before you know it."

That's my prince in shining armor. He doesn't have to have a white horse and maybe to the eye there's nothing special, but I love him and I love our companionship. And that no matter what anyone else says, will last forever.