That's what this weekend was all about.
I haven't written much about it but Kevin and I are separated.
I'm learning how to put the pieces back together.
Or at least that's my hope.
But in realizing that the pieces of our relationship were torn apart, I've realized something else.
That I need to put the pieces back together for me too.
One of my sweet friends has what she calls a vision board.
It's a decorated poster board with quotes that she loves and covered with her goals.
Goals that are personal and some big such as paying off the mortgage.
I love it.
I think it's time that I do the same.
I've hated this transitional period where the future was so unsure.
Time to put the pieces back together, at least with me for now.
"We must become the change we want to see."
~Ghandi
this breaks my heart. i hurt so much reading this. i don't understand. it seemed as if you and your husband had a love like one i'd never seen. i am reminded never to judge and assume. i hope you are okay. i wish i knew more so that i could make sense of it all. i really hope things work out with you- and with you as a couple. please, if you feel like you can, share more so that we can understand what you are going through.
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I hope you're okay Lisa. I really do! I know that everything will work out as it is meant to be and I will absolutely pray for you - your peace mostly. That's what we need - peace.
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Sending happy and hopeful thoughts your way girlie!!
ReplyDeleteUgh I had this comment all done and then it went away. Sigh. ANYWHO! Lisa...my heart goes out to you and Kevin both. I have been there, through two divorces, and I would like to tell you that it does get better. There are days that are dark, but then one day you wake up and know in your soul that you will be okay. I am and will be praying for you for: strength to face the morning (and the nights), wisdom for the right words to say, contentment in YOURSELF, and something to find joyful in each new day. If you ever need an unbiased shoulder, just give me a shout. Sometimes venting to an unknown helps. :-)
ReplyDeleteOh this makes me ill. What happened? It's hard to believe as a reader of the blog. I just can't make sense of it. I've been thinking about it ALL day non-stop. I hope you are okay.
ReplyDeleteThis summer, our neighborhood was hit by a tornado. It was described as a scene from Armageddon. I watched as, weekend by weekend, trees were cleared, homes were repaired, debris was cleared, and the neighborhood came back to a pristine new glory. Then came the hurricane. Once again, the trees fell over and the debris flew everywhere, homes were destroyed. But, the weary neighborhood went back to work. It's a slow process, but piece by piece, it's coming together. It's a whole lot harder when it's a marriage, or any other personal loss or tragedy. You've had more than your fair share of late. It's my belief, however, that you're a lot like my neighborhood. You rise through it. You take devastation and allow it to transform you into a pristine new Lis. Let it take time. Trees don't re-grow over night. If you need help clearing, or help rebuilding, I think I speak for most of your readers when I say, I'm here for you, girl!
ReplyDeletep.s. I love the idea of a vision board :b
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