Keep Walking

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I have had to remind myself several times to keep walking, keep trying and to move forward.

When God closes a door, He always opens a window. I am currently looking for my window. The hardest trial of life came this summer unexpectedly when my husband asked for a divorce. He said that I wasn't enough and that I am an awful person. 

In the beginning I broke down. I went to New York and saw my favorite city alone. Luckily, my aunt understood that I needed that time. I remembered my passions and what I used to love before I was married. I remembered who Lisa is and what she wants to do in the future.

As I've been working on divorce papers, packing up my dream home or what I thought was my dream . . . I have had help. Thanks to my sweet friend Lauren for being my rock through it all. To Kylee for amazing dinners and lifting my spirituality when I thought God had abandoned me. To Lindsay for late night walks and a spontaneous trip to Trader Joe's as I needed some motherly guidance since my own mother is so far away. 

Through the thick and thin, I have had to work to find joy. Yes, I have found it. It's in the quiet moments of the sun setting. It has been in the sweet text messages of an old friend making sure I'm okay. It has been in the music that I love. Even with the world crashing down upon me, joy can be found.

It is a reminder that it will be alright in the end. 

There are still several things for me to figure out. There's the question of where to go to from here. I've been waiting to hear back from a couple of internships back East in pursue of my dream to be a journalist. There's still the question of how much alimony and if I get to keep my car or not. There's still the question of what to do with all my stuff and how to get it to wherever I'm moving.

I just have to remember to trust in God and believe in good things to come. 

Yes, there are many good things to come. I am growing stronger and I have learned that I am enough.